Another day like another year sitting in my basement negotiating with my pain. Refusing to go away. Resting just below the surface. Rising to the top when a trigger calls. This pain is un-mitigating. My soul aches. My heart cries. My sorrow never stops.
This pain is self-taught. I brought it on myself. So many bad decisions. All those wrong choices. Stupid obsessions. Wanting to believe every lie I intentionally bought. There's never a prize inside. Just regret wrapped in a fool's desperation.
Toiling for a better day was all I ever did. Giving all I had. Sacrificing whatever I would get, if I didn't fumble it away.
No forgiveness. No second chances. Only purgatory.
Sadness. So much overwhelming sadness.
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